Theme: NIGHT FEELS
12.12.2020
At night … what does everything feel like?
Lying naked on the bed being pleasured?
Feels like liquorice and paper and kale and bitter pineapple
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Het Vinger op de Tijd
Aardbei gezicht en reguloos
Geen verassing of minder geboot
Wat heb jij gevoelt
Vandaag
Het vinger op de tijd
Maar heeft een leuke mer
Geen minder verhaal vertellt
Naar de land
Ik kun niet mer
Zeggen
Het vinger op de tijd
Tijdelijke woender
Wie erg straks gelieft
Jij vind allemal geroept
In de wind
Het vinger op de tijd
Nergens
Verbergen
Hun gezicht
Heelemaal
Verminder
Loos
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Having an orgasm?
Feels like hot cardboard scrunched up in my ears
Listening to Jones snoring?
Feels like moss and sheets of paper and tarmac
My tongue?
Feels like warm slug and black tea and plastic
His hand on the inside of my thigh?
Feels like fir and sail and peach
Being hungry?
Feels like hot dry sour biscuit in my throat
Breathing?
Feels like cold white tiles and …
Listening to a plane?
Feels like curled metal and hard grey cotton wool
My crossed legs?
Pine cones and lemon
It has begun. The future is here …
Jones is heading toward an insane job offer. Only 4 weeks ago none of this would’ve been even remotely visible. I am literally stepping into my vision. I remember when we first got together his ex girlfriend sent me a message on FB warning me that he will never change and what I wanted no future. I could not say.
But I saw something. A glimpse. Like a toothless prospector standing in filthy long johns in an Alaskan creek sifting through mud. At times the struggle was overwhelming but once I made a resolve, everything started falling into its place more rapidly than I could’ve have imagined. The nuggets are appearing at a faster rate and in larger sizes.
There is my wealth.
Now I finally understand the power of intentions, goals and deadlines.
Or more like wants and deadlines.
My deadline was 31st December. It was boom or bust. I really wanted this to happen but I was also as happy to walk away. I think this is the key!!!
During the Business Master it was all about goals and deadlines.
Marketing goals
Production goals
Funding goals
And it completely stressed me out. I loathed setting goals because it would brutally show me the extend of lack of skills and time and resources I had and the abundance of hard work ahead of me. It was painful and too much responsibility.
With Jones, however, the responsibility lay with him. Get your shit together or I walk. I love you deeply and I have absolute faith in us because I had a vision but I am not messing about. All or nothing.
THIS IS IT!
If I approached ANY business venture like this, like a lover, it will happen!!!
Vision
Mission
Faith
Love
Intuition
And not taking responsibility but relaxing into it, into the challenge.
Of course it will be work but it will be intuitively performed. Inspired. And therefore fun. I’m a sucker for that.
A cocksucker. For fun.
